Speech of HH Sri Ganapathy Sachchidananda Swamiji – August 24, 2006 – Vijayawada
Jaya Guru Datta
I am being mobbed – Like people throng a coffee shop for early morning even before the shutters of the shop are pulled up. I am just arriving and already you are heaping requests, prayers for Bhajans, speeches, Pujas, visit homes, Pada Puja etc., No inquiries about the journey, pleasantries, Probably you feel that its your duty to ask me to give speeches. Duty is beauty to some. You all come in that category. Many think. “Swamiji is divine. Why does he need rest? He does not behave like us. So, He does not want or need anything we need. Also, Swamiji travels too much. How much does he need to travel more? It is time, he reduces. He should just visit my home. That’s enough. If Swamiji talks to me, that’s enough.”. This is what most people think. Since thousands of people think so, for me it translates as – keep traveling to thousands of places.
It is all Devi’s Leela. I speak that much to that person to that extent as decided by their Karma. I don’t have any say in it. It is all Devi’s Leela. Nobody can decide my fate. You may ask – Can’t Swamiji do something if he really wishes to do ? I certainly can. But though I can do it, you are not destined to have it.
Many people think like the following manner.
(From here Sri Swamiji mimics the doubts a person may get and the answers Sri Swamiji gives. The questions are printed in italics)
Swamiji can change my fate
Yes. I may – But I wont.
Why?
Because I don’t want to do it. That’s why.
Please Swamiji
No. I don’t want.
Please Swamiji make your Sankalpa
Sorry. My Sankalpa is not to change. Your fate is to be like this. If you think your existence is miserable, then so be it. So is the fate. You adjust. Don’t Ask Swamiji to interfere
But Swamiji helped the other person who is not deserving!!!!
Well. I wanted to interfere, so, I did it.
But he does not respect you
Its okay. It’s my worry. Why are you worried? I wanted to do it, so I did it.
But Swamiji he does not deserve it
Don’t worry – I will make him deserving.
Swamiji He is a Satan
Is it? Ok. Even Satan needs Salvation.
You don’t know the worth of others. Who are you to discuss it? The way the Chitra Guptas (Hindy Mythology’s St.Peter) keep their accounts of person’s actions are unknown to you.
But Swamiji he is also very stupid and idiot.
I know he is. That’s why I care him.
But Swamiji why don’t you care those who are with you 24 hours?
I don’t want to do anything to them. I will trouble them even more. It is my wish. A guru is fully independent. Then, Swamiji – don’t you have any compassion? I do have compassion – but not on you. Why? I don’t know. I will talk to you, laugh and smile at you but not yield to your prayers. Why? I just don’t want to do it.
You want to leave me? No problem. Please leave. Why asked you to stay in the first place? If you do not get what you want, then why hang around?
Sorry. I cannot leave.
Then stay, but stay with what you get and what you have. Stay to comfort yourself with what you have and get.
You still will not do it? Swamiji???
No, I will not. Never.
There are several instances where Swamiji had opened the car window while traveling and called the person on the scooter while standing in a traffic light and given Upadesha Mantra. There also are instances where I caused confusion in people who have given their entire self to me. They even left me. I even caused them to doubt me. I do what I want, what I feel. I give power of speech to the dumb and the best of the speaker will fumble for words in my presence. A dullard will get knowledge where as I will infuse desires in a person who is a scholar. No questions can be asked. Why?? Because you do not know the arithmetic of my being. It does not concern you. I will reveal this to the persons of my choice.
What about me Swami?
I will never tell you. I will make you forget the little you know.
Swamiji I have been calling for to come home for 10 years. But now I hear you are going to the house of that person who barely knows you.
I know that. It’s my wish. Did you know? There is even another twist. He did not even call me.
Then, how can I understand you better so that I can be even more devoted?
Don’t try to understand me. Who asked you to understand me?
But then, how can I understand a Sadguru?
You never will understand a Sadguru.
Then what to do?
Just stay at home, watch TV. Watch soap operas (serials). Why do you want all this messy confusion?
How can that be, it is not possible to give up?
Is it?? Okay then, come and suffer.
Well then, Can I learn anything here?
No. A big No. I will not teach anything.
Then, is this all final and settled?
It is final
But you have given lessons before.
Yes I have. But I will not hence forth.
If at all you teach one day, what will you teach?
I will teach whatever you learn.
Can you be more specific in what you teach? Please.
I will teach you confusion.
But I want to learn devotion.
I will teach you that.
But all these answers of yours are making me lose faith in you.
I will teach you that. I will make even your neighbors lose faith in me.
Are you making fun of me? Or is it serious talk?
It is both.
Or are you causing confusion in me deliberately?
Yes. I am.
Why?
It is needed once a year. It cannot be missed. The vehicle needs oiling.. Total rewash.
Is it YOUR job?
Yes. It is INDEED my job.
But Swamiji, I thought you are a great Guru, Avadhuta, Swami, God, Dattatreya, Devi etc .,
Who asked you to assume things? Most miseries comes from assumptions.
A person of little wisdom will realise that at some point there will be oiling of the vehicle and it is good and that is victorious thought. Don’t ever come here expecting me to do things you assumed about me or expect me to do. You yourself cannot do small things you expect in your own life. How can you expect me to do it for you?
Whatever Jaganmaata (Mother Goddess) wishes me to do will happen. I will not lift a leaf without her will – even if you break your head for it to be done.
Sometimes I may appear to be doing the things you wish to be done.. But beware. I t is a trap.
But then how to adjust to Swamiji?
Don’t adjust or anything. Just be your normal self. Expectations cause problems here. Just be your natural self. Don’t show off. Don’t try to be overtly spiritual. Don’t try to be over religious. Don’t be a ritual buff. Just be your normal self. Lessons will reach you. Don’t aspire for more. Just try and be normal. Have you observed that I said TRY and be normal. I say this because most people are so unnatural, that one has to TRY to be normal. This is my answer to your barrage of silly questions. Don’t come down on your moral scale nor try to take a higher ground. Desires are unlimited. Desire to be desires. Whatever little spiritual practices you are doing, ensure that you keep doing it. Don’t stop doing it. To slide down is easy than climbing. Climbing is always difficult. To climb you need to spend more calories. But it is good for health. Whatever your social state or job, keep up with your spiritual practices. Money has no role here. The only truth is that you are alive and you have a life to spend. Do good.
Sadguru does what he does. You first do what you must do. Ensure that the energy you put in goes in right channel.
Sri Guru Datta